one emotional night

Why I find it’s funny to be happy and sad at the same time?

Did you guys ever feel the way I felt now? Laugh but dying inside?

And, I find it’s funny when, you’ve finally met someone, and you’re so happy when you are with the person but you know they don’t feel happy as much as you are. Yes, they looks happy but not as happy as you. It’s funny right?

But I often ignore that feeling. I don’t want to think about it. The more you think, the more you feel pain.

I had a nightmare last few night and Jaejay’s  said I was shouting in my sleep. It was a very bad nightmare and indeed I was shouting on my dream but I did not realized my voice will came out loud. Haha. It was a dreaming about my family. I saw mom and my three sisters in a forest. It’s like a haunted forest with black witches. There was also one tall and big-giant black three. I just only remember this.

Maybe I think too much. Maybe I miss my family. Or maybe I forgot to take a shower before I sleep.

I don’t know.